A Moment in Time
By WinterViolet24
Title: A Moment in Time
Author: Lily (WinterViolet24) WinterViolet24@aol.com
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: The following characters belong to Joss Whedon and
Mutant Enemy,
I am simply using the characters for my own twisted enjoyment.
Author's Note: It has been so long since I have written a
Buffy/Giles story that I hope I do not disappoint with the
following tale. Though I should point out it's more of a scene
than a tale, it could possibly become a story if people feel
there's enough to go on to make a story with it. Until now it's
just a short little piece.
This is the true measure of Love,
When we believe that we alone can love,
That no on could ever have loved so before us,
And that no one will ever love in the same way
after us.
-Goethe
The sand was warm beneath her feet and the
ocean waves rolled in and out, creating their own mesmerizing
song, their movements hypnotic. The palm trees behind her waved
in the heated breeze and she pulled the gauzy white wrap tighter
around herself, her dress a simple white. She looked out at the
glittering blue sea and thought of him. How he would love to see
such a sight, knowing he would come soon enough to see it. Her
soft blonde hair brushed along her cheeks and her green eyes
looked up at the skies. They were a mixture of blue, pink, red,
and purple, the sun setting low.
Suddenly she felt strong warm arms around her
and sighed deeply, knowing the touch as well as her own. She
turned in those arms and buried herself in his chest, feeling
blessed as his hands ran over her hair, cupping the nape of her
neck. She could smell his cologne and her body tingled at each
touch of his fingers on her scalp, as he seemed to try and caress
each strand lovingly.
It was then she decided that she wanted to die
here. To not look up, even if to look at his lovely face because
she was to scared to lose this feeling, to lose him. It felt too
good, too full of love. It was overwhelming her. He tightened his
hold but his hands didn't stop running through her hair or
dancing down her spine. She stayed this way with him as long as
she could before letting out a sigh, easing some of the
butterflies out of her system and breathing his name,
"Rupert."
She lifted her head and looked into Rupert
Giles' green eyes, his handsome face, his features chiseled and
unforgettable. She loved how soft his mouth looked and managed to
raise a hand to let her fingers brush his lips as he said in a
whisper, "Buffy."
Giles lowered his head and his lips grazed
hers, his tongue flicking out to urge her mouth open. But there
was no need for encouragement. Her arms wrapped around his neck
and pulled him down to her, she kissed him with passion and
longing. The type of kiss she gave him every time she found
herself with him like this.
His arms wrapped around her and lifted her up
so their mouths could meet better, their tongues entangle more
and Buffy's hands went for his hair, running through those thick
strands of brown. They both pulled away panting softly and giving
each other a few more quick kisses before falling into giggles
and talking for a bit.
They went to the water's edge and stuck their
feet in the wet sand, the rushing ocean caressing their toes and
they ran along the beach. They ended up below a palm tree,
watching the first stars appear and kissing each other quietly
when Buffy began to cry. The tears came softly, running down her
cheeks to get caught with their kisses. Giles pulled away and
kissed each tear away whispering, "I love you. I love
you."
But this answer just made Buffy cry harder and
she threw herself into Giles arms, weeping, "I can't stand
this again! Please, please I know this is going to end. I can't
bear to have it end again! Hold me, please don't let me go. Don't
let me go back."
"You must Buffy, if you ever wish for this to come true you
must go back." He whispered against her hair as he held her.
Buffy sniffled and felt the heat of him
against her, her ear pressed to his chest and she could hear his
heart beat, so rhythmic and in time. She rubbed her cheek against
him to remember the feel. She did something like this every time,
whether it was running her fingers along his palm or pressing her
mouth against his neck she always did some act to remember the
feel of him but it never last. Never, or even if it did for a bit
it wasn't enough. She was still left hungry and wanting.
Giles drew away and whispered, "It's
time."
Buffy shook her head wildly and clutched at
him, "No! No just a little longer, please. I beg of you,
Rupert. Oh god I love you so much! Don't send me back!"
"I love when you call me Rupert." He
admitted, "Giles always seemed a bit stodgy and dusty when
you said it. When I was just your 'Watcher' not the man you now
love."
"I DO love you now, Rupert. I tried so
hard not to but I couldn't help myself, couldn't hold myself
back. I realized my devotion to you, my thoughts of you weren't
that that should be shared between a father figure and a daughter
or a tutor and a student but as a man and a woman. That's why
we're here. That's why we're together right now like this.
Because I love you and want to be with you."
"Then why don't you tell me?"
"I want to! Oh god how I want to but-but
I'm so afraid. I've got so many people who wouldn't expect me to
Xander,
Willow, and you
the REAL you, I mean what would they say
about something like this? Especially you, how would you react?
Would you return my feelings or run away or try to tell me I was
wrong. And Riley, it's terrible of me to string him on like this
I know." I truly thought I felt something for him but there
is a divider between loving someone and BEING in love with
someone and I'm IN love with you. You're who I want to be with
like this, forever and ever. That's why you can't send me back, I
beg of you." Buffy whispered and clutched him tighter to her
body, fighting an inevitable tide that crushed her so every time.
Giles closed his eyes and kissed the top of her head as he said,
"This isn't real, Buffy."
Buffy broke in half, hot tears squeezing out,
"I know. It never is." Giles titled her head up and
placed a kiss on her lips, "But it can be. Someday, maybe I
won't have to send you back and this will be real and I will hold
and kiss you just like this. We'll have a moment of time together
all alone just like this."
"I don't think," she licked her
lips, tasting her salty tears, "I don't think anyone could
love like this. Like I love you, my soul and heart hurt so much I
feel like everyone can feel it. Like everyone in the world knows
it, just by looking at me they know
I don't know if we'll
ever be like this but I do know I love you more than any other
woman could possibly love any other man."
"If we don't end up like this, just
remember, I'm always here for you. I'm always with you, deep
inside, waiting for the next precious time you close your eyes
and go to sleep so we can be together again." Giles returned
and kissed her one last time before fading away.
**
Buffy woke up, her pillow covered in tears.
She ran a hand over her face and moaned. It hurt like hell,
everytime she woke up from one of those perfect, hurtfully-too
descriptive and realistic feeling dreams. Everytime she left one
of those sweet, solitary moments in time with him, the man she
loved and couldn't have: Rupert Giles.
END