Divine Intervention
By Princess
Slayer
TITLE: Divine Intervention
AUTHOR: Princess Slayer
E-MAIL: PrincessSlayer@hotmail.com
RATING: PG
FEEDBACK: The voices are getting upset because no-ones talking to
them. Come
on, make them happy ;-)
SUMMARY: Giles finally gets some closure - with a little help
from a higher power.
SPOILERS: Detailed for Passion and possibly minor for anything
beyond that. Plus one for the Angel ep Heroes.
DISTRIBUTION: Solo, as always, and anyone else who wants it, as
long as you tell me where it's gone.
DISCLAIMER: Look, *you* know I don't own them, *I* know I don't
own them, so why do you have to make me say it? It depresses me.
Okay - fine. Joss owns everything. He is the King. Feeling the
enthusiasm?
The archangel Gabriel was not happy. Being an angel, and
therefore a creature of pure goodness, he was not supposed to
glare. But today he was making an exception.
"Let's be friends," he repeated, for the tenth time.
"Let's be friends! You were supposed to make them fall in
love! Their relationship was supposed to be passionate, not
platonic."
"I'm sorry. I tried." The angel sitting opposite him
was known as Aziraphale, and he worked in the division of Heaven
that dealt with love matters.
"Trying is not good enough," glared Gabriel. "Not
one of the couples you had responsibility for over the past
century are happy. The Australian woman had an affair. The French
couple got divorced. The Scottish girl got tired of waiting for
him to return from the navy and had a baby by another man. And
that girl in England sits in her room all day listening to
depressing music because she's his shoulder to cry on about the
damn redhead! And that's just the tip, *of the tip*, of the
iceberg! You're useless!"
"I'll try harder, I promise," whimpered Aziraphale.
"Just give me one more chance."
"One is all you're getting."
"I won't fail," he promised. "Who is it?"
Gabriel snapped his fingers and an image began to form behind him
from a mass of bright swirls. Aziraphale's eyes grew wide in
terror as he recognised the faces.
"No..."
"Rupert Giles and Buffy Summers."
"I can't," Aziraphale begged. "No-one can. We've
tried before - we've tried everything. Impending death, mutual
enemies, forgivness after mass betrayal - they're completely
blind."
"I thought you said you wouldn't fail this time," the
archangel quipped.
Aziraphale floundered for a moment, trying to think of another
excuse. "It's dangerous!" he said, eventually. "We
sent Doyle down there to keep the vampire away from Buffy and he
ended up dead. I'm sorry, but this case is a liability, you'll
have to find someone else."
The archangel took two steps toward Aziraphale, until he was
standing directly in front of him, looming over him. "Get
down there right now. And if you want to come back to Heaven
again, you will make them realise that they are soul mates and
you will make them happy. If you fail this time you will not be
allowed back in. Do you understand?"
Aziraphale swallowed. If he'd had a heartbeat it would have
increased. "I understand," he said.
* * * * *
"So the demon was tall?"
"Yeah. And its skin was all wrinkled and yellowy, like it
had been way over-indulging in the dark side of the Force."
Willow scrunched up her face. "Ew," she said.
"Giles, any thoughts?" Buffy said, looking over to
where her her ex-Watcher was perched on the chair by her desk.
"What?" he said, distractedly looking up from his
reverie.
"Ground control to Major Giles!" Buffy laughed.
"The demon I killed about an hour ago, remember?"
"Oh, demon, yes. Not to worry if you killed it. Any more of
his kind come along just...just...kill them too." He pushed
himself up from the chair and began to make his way over to the
door of the room that Willow and Buffy shared.
The girls exchanged a look. "Giles, are you okay?"
Buffy asked.
"I'm fine," he replied, not even looking back.
"Well you're obviously lying now," Buffy told him
standing up to block his path. "What gives?"
"Oh, nothing really," Giles said. "I just didn't
sleep well last night, that's all."
"Since when did lack of sleep make you go into monosyllabic
mode?"
"Since now," Giles said, his eyes like daggers and the
tone of his voice making it very clear she was not to push the
matter any further. Buffy backed away a little and he took
advantage of the opening to slip out of the door.
"That was wierd," Willow said, after he'd gone.
"Extremely wierd. You know I spoke to him this afternoon and
he was off then, too. What's up with him?"
"Something must be bothering him." Willow looked
thoughtful for a moment. "Wait a minute," she said, at
last. "What date is it today?"
Buffy checked her wristwatch. "February 24th. Why?"
"What happened two years ago today?" Willow said.
"I don't know," Buffy shrugged.
"Who *died* two years ago today?"
Another shrug. "I think you're gonna have to spell it out
for me, Will, 'cos I'm drawing a blank here."
"Buffy, it's two years since Ms. Calendar died!" Willow
exclaimed.
"Oh," Buffy said. "Oh!" she realised.
"Poor Giles. No wonder he's not with it. Do you think I
should go after him?"
"No, I think maybe we should leave him for a while. Talk to
him later."
"Maybe," Buffy said. She turned away so that Willow
wouldn't see the tears that were threatening to form in her eyes.
Not out of grief or guilt for Jenny, but pity for Giles. He
always kept his feelings so bottled up, a state she knew from
past experience was destructive. It hurt her that she couldn't
comfort him the way he always comforted her when she needed it.
She resolved to find him and do what she could to make him feel
better.
* * * * *
Aziraphale sat atop the gravestone, banging his legs against it.
God, (excuse him) how he hated the earth! And he was an angel -
he wasn't supposed to hate. That's what happened when you spent
twelve centuries hanging around humans. You picked up a thing or
two from them.
In his human body, Aziraphale appeared to be in his early
thirties, was tall and good-looking, with neatly cropped, dusty
blonde hair and trustworthy blue eyes. He looked like a doctor,
or possibly a better breed of lawyer. The kind of man that the
women in Bridget Jones' Diary preyed upon like wild beasts. Of
course, being an angel he was entirely sexless. The only reason
he appeared as a man was that it had been easier back in the old
days, when the patriarchal society had been in full bloom, to be
a man, and over the centuries he'd become rather attatched to
this body. He often thought it would be interesting to have all
the man...parts...and try them out (he'd had plenty of offers).
Just to see what the fuss was about. Why exactly he'd been
fighting for these miserable idiots.
At least people in the twentieth century weren't as prudish as
their ancestors were. That had always been one of Aziraphale's
pet hates. It made the life of a love angel ten times harder than
it already was. Gabriel was in charge of deciding the soul mates
and most of the time he was pretty sensible about it, but the old
man did have rather an annoying penchant for dramatic irony and
star-crossed lovers. He'd been given the job because he was a
hopeless romantic, but if you asked Aziraphale it was that reason
exactly that should have disqualified him from the position.
Buffy and Giles had long been the bane of the love angel's lives.
They were, quite literally, made for each other, but they were
both too big a fool to see it. Their relationship was the worst
kind. So obvious once you knew the truth, but so easy to pass by
if you didn't. It was just so *neat.* That's what bugged him. The
Watcher and the Slayer, together throughout everything. Total and
complete devotion came as standard. Perfect.
So why was it so blo..dam...ah, forget it; why was it so hard?!
He checked the watch he kept tucked in his pocket (while he
always made the effort to keep up with the latest fashions, there
were just some things that he refused to do. Wearing a wristwatch
was one of them. Watches on chains had so much more dignity).
Giles should be here by now. Aziraphale looked around, searching
for his target. As he did so, he let out a long sigh. How on
earth had he managed to get himself into this position?
* * * * *
A few feet away, unknowingly watched by a pair of supernatural
eyes, Giles layed a small bouquet of flowers against the dirty
white of the gravestone. He studied the simple, gold letters.
JENNIFER CALENDAR. Nothing else, just her name, and not even her
real name at that. No dates, no cheap attempt to summarise her
life in one sentence. Just her name.
"You really miss her, don't you?"
Giles spun round, and found himself face to face with a handsome,
young, intelligent looking man. "I'm sorry?" he said.
"Jenny," Aziraphale said. "You miss her, don't
you?"
"Yes..." Giles began, cautiously. "Did you know
her?"
"Not while she was alive, no," Aziraphale said. "I
know you, though."
"I wish I could say the same."
Aziraphale smiled. "This is the bit that's always the
hardest. Making you believe. Once you get past this bit, it's
pretty much plain sailing." He put his arm around Giles'
shoulder and led him away from the headstone. "Now,
Rupert," he said. "You don't mind if I call you Rupert
do you? Good. Now, Rupert. You're an intelligent man. You're a
Watcher, you've seen a lot more than most people in this world.
You fight demons professionally, therefore you have to believe in
them. But now I'm asking you to believe in their polar
opposites."
Giles raised an eyebrow, skeptically. "Angels?" he
said.
Aziraphale nodded. "Well done."
"You're trying to tell me that you're an angel?"
"That's correct."
Giles blinked a few times, his face stony. "So where are the
wings and harp?" he said.
"Rupert.." Aziraphale began. "You've never seen me
before, yet somehow I know you're name, I know that you're a
Watcher..."
"Anybody could have found that out."
"Alright then, how about this. I know that you have the Mark
of Eyghon tattooed on your left arm. I know that the Christmas
you were ten you asked your father for a bicycle and instead you
got a pair of quaterstaffs. I know that after your mother died
you blamed your father so you burnt all the photos you had of
them together. Then you curled up on her bed, crying into the red
jumper she wore every Christmas."
"How-how did you know that? I've never told anyone that. I
didn't even write it in my diary in case my father found
out."
Aziraphale nodded, expectantly. "You were ashamed. Thought
it was pathetic, didn't you? Now do you believe me?"
"Well, I, I suppose so. What are you, a guardian
angel?"
"You could put it like that. I'm not strictly devoted to
you, you understand. This is a temporary thing."
"Then what are you?"
"I can't say. To tell you the nature of my being would be to
interfere and I cannot do that. I cannot interfere. What I can
do, is show you something."
"Show me what?" Giles asked, trying to ignore the
voices in his head that were telling him to rationalise the
situation.
"After Jenny died you were haunted by dreams about saving
her," Aziraphale said. It was not a question, more of a
reminder. "How would you like those dreams to come
true?"
"What?" Giles exclaimed, incredulously. "You can
do that?" Aziraphale nodded. "Oh, I don't know,"
Giles continued. "Messing around with time, changing
events..it's dangerous. Look at poor Anya!"
"Hey!" Aziraphale said. "I think I'm more
qualified to decide that than you, alright? If I say it's alright
then it's alright. Alright?"
"Alright," Giles said, deciding it was best not to
argue with this creature.
"Good," Aziraphale concluded. Giles was right, of
course. Messing around with the space-time continuum *was*
dangerous. There were an infinite number of alternate timelines
and Aziraphale, being a supernatural entity, knew the details of
all of them. And he knew that once Giles discovered the path that
this timeline would take, it would only be a temporary thing. At
least, that's what he hoped...
"So what do I have to do?" Giles asked.
Aziraphale cocked his head to the side and grinned. "I'm
glad you asked," he said, snapping his fingers. Slowly, an
ethereal blue whirlpool began to form behind him. "Time
portal," he explained, not even turning round.
"I bet you show this to all the boys," Giles said.
"What do I do?"
"This'll take you wherever you need to go. You go through
it, do whatever it takes to save Jenny, then come back. These
things only hang around for an hour, so be quick."
"That's it?"
"That's it," the angel replied. Then he was gone.
Taking a deep breath, Giles took a few tentative steps toward the
portal. He took a final look at his watch before he went. The
hands were just ticking over to 11pm.
* * * * *
He felt as though he was being pulled apart. Every individual
molecule in his body sparked with a glowing electricity as he was
flung through the very fabrics of time and space. The blackness
that surrounded him seemed to glow somehow, totally overtaking
him as it controlled his body, his mind and his life.
* * * * *
Jenny was sitting in her classroom, working late in front of her
computer. She tapped a few keys, then looked back at the screen
to see if it was responding. The Rumanian text in front of her
was suddenly obscured by a small window showing a bar zipping
across to show the percent complete.
"Come on, come on..." she whispered to herself.
The bar disappeared, and a second panel opened up on the screen,
showing an English translation.
"That's it!" Jenny smiled, exhilerated. "It's
gonna work! This... will work."
She saved her work, and an unlabeled, yellow, floppy disk popped
out of her computer. Setting it next to a pile of books, Jenny
excitedly spun her chair over to where a printer had begun
spitting out a hard copy of the Curse of Restoration. A cold
chill crept over the young teacher, and she looked up nervously,
as though sensing that she was not alone. Her fears were not
unfounded. As she looked up, she was horrified to recognise the
face of Angel sitting quietly at the back of her classroom.
"Angel..." Jenny began, jumping out of her seat and
moving slowly to the door. "How did you get in here?"
"I was invited," the demon told her. "The sign in
front of the school... 'Formatiatrans sicere educatorum.'"
"'Enter all ye who seek knowledge,'" Jenny whispered.
Angel let out a cold laugh as he launched himself up from his
chair. "What can I say?" he continued. "I'm a
knowledge seeker."
"Angel, I-I-I've got good news," Jenny told him, frozen
to the spot with fear. God, how could she be so stupid! Sitting
here, alone at night without even so much as a cross to protect
herself.
"I heard," Angel told her, with mock enthusiasm.
"You went shopping at the local boogedy-boogedy store."
He noticed the clear cut Orb sitting on the desk. "The Orb
of Thesulah," he said, picking it up. "If memory
serves, this is supposed to summon a person's soul... from the
ether... store it until it can be transferred."
He looked deep into the flawless centre of the Orb, and it began
to glow.
"You know what I hate most about these things?" he
asked.
The technopagan screamed as he lunged the Orb into the blackboard
behind her. It shattered into a thousand sparkling pieces.
"They're so damn fragile," Angel smiled. "Must be
that shoddy gypsy craftsmanship, huh?
Outside in the halls, the ghostly figure of the future Giles was
wandering around, looking in all the classrooms, trying to find
Jenny, hoping that he wasn't too late. He heard her piercing
scream and immediately began running in the direction of the
classroom.
"I never cease to be amazed how much the world has changed
in just two and a half centuries," Angel told Jenny, as he
turned her monitor so he could see the screen.
Giles looked in at the scene in the classroom. He could see
Jenny's hand slowly reaching for the doorknob. With lightning
fast reflexes, Giles reached down and clicked the lock on the
door out of place. Jenny's hand gingerly twisted the knob, and
silently as possible she inched the door open.
"It's a miracle to me," Angel continued, oblivious to
her escape. "You, you put the secrets to restoring my soul
in here..." He pushed the computer off her desk. It landed
with a loud crash, breaking, the monitor shattered, sparks flying
from it.
"It comes out here," Angel said, looking at the paper
he had torn from the printer. Jenny took his momentary
distraction as her cue to dart out the door and run as fast as
possible.
"What the..." Angel exclaimed, looking up. "That
door was locked!" He looked out into the halls, but Jenny
was already at the considerable advantage with her head start.
Giles was waiting for Jenny in the lounge area. He unlocked the
doors that led to the outside and walked through them, leaving
them swinging behind him. Jenny came running a moment later and
threw herself straight through the doors. Taking one last look
back inside the school, she saw Angel coming after her at a fast
walk.
"Oh, God," she screamed, and ran in the direction of
the car park, heading straight for her car, ignoring the pain in
her side from where she had fallen.
"Dammit!" Angel exclaimed, as he stepped out into the
night, only to hear the sound of wheels screeching on tarmac
followed by a speedy getaway. "She get's me to chase her and
work up an appetite, and then no kill..." he whispered to
himself, through gritted teeth. "Someone's gonna get
hurt."
* * * * *
He was back in the graveyard. A quick glance at his watch showed
him that time was just ticking over to 11:01pm.
Everything looked...just the same. Perhaps a bit more litter, and
a few less people on the streets, but generally everything looked
the same.
He walked for a little while through the darkened streets, past
the cinema and the mall, until he came to the late night opening
convienience stores.
"Hey Giles, whatcha doing here?"
Giles spun round at the sound of the familiar voice.
"Xander?" he said.
"Hey Giles."
He hadn't even noticed the second person standing behind the
younger man, until she spoke. "Cordelia? Wha-what on earth
are you doing here?"
"I'm asking myself the same question," she said,
wrapping her arms tightly around Xander's waist. Giles' eyes grew
wide at the gesture. Hadn't these two broken up? "But
beggars can't be chosers, and this is the only place open at this
time of night that's within our price range and I have a craving
for cookie dough ice cream and pickled onions, only we don't have
any cookie dough at home, so..."
"She dragged me out of bed to get ice cream," Xander
finished.
"Ice cream and onions?" Giles repeated.
"Oh, don't you start on me," Cordelia said. "I
swear this child is going to be warped!" she joked, placing
a hand over her stomach. "Although my mom says she had wierd
cravings with me, and I turned out okay."
"No comment," Xander said. Cordelia hit him hard on the
arm. "Ow!"
"Never insult a pregnant woman, Honey."
Pregnant! Giles' head was spinning. How on earth had Jenny living
caused Xander and Cordelia to be a happily expecting couple? Oh
well, best not to question that which you don't understand.
"Aren't you supposed to be on patrol?" Xander asked.
"What?" Giles said, coming out of his reverie.
"Oh, um...I'm done."
"Pretty uneventful night, huh?"
"I wouldn't put it quite like that..."
"Well, we'll let you get home, then. We don't want Jenny
worrying about you."
Jenny...
<We don't want Jenny worrying about you.> She would be
waiting for him at home...at their home.
"Oh, by the way," Xander said, just before he turned to
go. "I got a letter from Willow this morning. She's coming
home next weekend."
"Hmm, little Miss Harvard coming home to mingle with the
commoners," Cordelia noted.
"Honey.." Xander began.
"I'm only kidding!" Cordelia replied, rolling her eyes.
"Come on. 'Night Giles."
<Little Miss Harvard...> Giles thought. <Alright, take a
moment to assess, old man. Xander and Cordelia are evidently
still a couple and Cordelia is in the early stages of pregnancy.
Willow is studying at Harvard and you and Jenny are together.>
Giles smiled, and looked up to the Heavens. <Thank you,> he
whispered mentally.
High above him, Aziraphale gave a reply that he knew Giles would
never hear. <Don't thank me until you know the whole
story.>
* * * * *
"Jenny...Hello..." Giles peered round the door of his
apartment. It was pretty much the same as he remembered it. A few
more vases of flowers adorning the surfaces and a lady's coat and
scarf hanging on the coat rack, but other than that it was just
the same.
It was also silent. Jenny was nowhere to be seen. The TV in the
corner flickered with a news report about some new missing person
in Sunnydale. Giles walked over and listened to the round up of
the days events.
"...And in other news," the reporter announced,
"the police investigating the disappearance of Sunnydale's
Mayor, Richard Wilkins III, have a new lead. They have found
Ethan Rayne, the man wanted for questioning for several months
now. The Mayor vanished almost a year and a half ago, on what was
a night of total chaos for Sunnydale when many of it's residents
found themselves affected by a mysterious drug, which has been
traced back to Mr. Rayne. We will bring you more on this story
when we have it..."
Giles smiled to himself. In this reality the demon Lurconis must
have killed the Mayor before he became impervious to harm. The
Ascencion had never happened. The High School would still be
standing. He would still have a job!
"Oh, you're back." Giles spun round to greet the voice
behind him, and his breath caught in his throat. Jenny was even
more beautiful than he remembered. Her hair fell around her
shoulders and her dark eyes looked at him with a pure,
unquestionable kind of love. But it was the ring on the third
finger of her left hand that really drew Giles attention. A
solitary diamond set in deep silver, surrounded by three tiny
emeralds, Jenny's birthstone. An engagement ring!
"Jenny..." Giles began. "I don't believe it! I
thought I'd lost you," he whispered, as he pulled his
fiancee into a tight embrace and squeezed her as though he would
never let her go.
"Rupert, are you okay?" Jenny asked, struggling to
break free from his overwhelming grip.
"I'm fine," Giles told her. "I've never been
better. Everything is...perfect."
"So, did you meet any interesting vampires?" Jenny
asked.
"What?" Giles asked, furrowing his brow.
"Vampires? I..."
"Yeah, you know, the ones with the sharp pointy teeth, they
like to eat blood. The creatures you've just been hunting on
patrol? Are you *sure* you're feeling okay, Honey? You're acting
a little odd."
"Oh! Oh, no I'm fine, thank you, Darling," Giles
smiled. "Yes, vampires...Um, big vampire, hit me on the
head...while I was patrolling...yes. I'm feeling a little woozy,
but I'm fine. Not to worry. Buffy killed him."
This time Jenny looked as though her fiance had made a sick joke.
"Buffy?" she said slowly.
<Buffy wasn't patrolling with me tonight!> Giles thought.
"Not Buffy?" he said.
"You really do need to lie down." Jenny grabbed Giles
by the arm and led him over to the foot of the stairs. "You
go up to bed and try and get some sleep. I'll finish clearing up
down here, then I'll follow you up. You'll feel better in the
morning."
Now Giles was getting worried. "What do you mean?" he
asked, trying desperately to think how he could get some more
information without revealing that he didn't have a clue what the
situation was in the world.
Jenny smiled, sympathetically. "I know it's hard for you at
this time of year. Getting hit over the head probably didn't
help." She tried to laugh, but failed miserably. "I
know how much you miss her," she said, bringing her hand to
the side of her loved one's face. She sighed deeply. "You go
upstairs," she told him, as she turned and walked away.
<"I know how much you miss her." Who!>
Giles' brow remained furrowed in a deep frown all the way up the
winding stairs. As soon as he reached his bedroom, he made his
way over to his wardrobe and pulled down the box that he knew
would be on the top shelf. It was where he kept all his Watcher
diaries. Peering into the box he threw aside the ones that were
written before Jenny's death. Well that was strange. The more
recent diaries - the ones which led up to the cruciamentum - were
nowhere to be seen. Giles mused for a moment, before pulling out
the one he knew had once held the details of Angel's murder of
Jenny. He opened it at the back, only to find that the last few
pages were empty. Well, that really was strange. Flipping through
the pages until he found the last few entries, Giles made his way
back over to the bed. He perched on the side of it as he began to
read.
"February 25th 1998
Jenny came to me last night. She has found a way to restore
Angel's soul. We told Buffy this morning; needless to say she is
thrilled beyond all measure. It will not be easy to accept Angel
again, or for him to accept himself, after his actions in the
past few months, but we have all agreed that we will make the
effort to welcome and comfort him. He was a good man and a good
friend before he lost his soul and I am glad that we will soon
have him back again.
"We have decided it would be best not to tell Angel what we
plan to do.
"February 28th 1998
This will be my last entry in the Watcher Diaries, for my Buffy
is dead. It happened the night of the 25th. Somehow, Angel got
wind of our plans and then confronted and killed Buffy. He broke
her neck and then left her in the swing on the porch at the front
of her house for her mother to find. He wrapped her up in a
blanket first, so she looked just like she was sleeping. Joyce
told me later that she looked so peaceful, she didn't want to
disturb her. She left her out there for almost two hours. Her
family and friends are distraught, of course. The children have
each other and I have done what I can to comfort her mother. She
told me she appreciates my concern and that Buffy used to talk
about me all the time. She assumes that I was her favourite
teacher. It saddens me that I cannot tell her the true nature of
our relationship. I think she would be happy to hear that her
daughter's short life had some meaning to it. It would be a
comfort to her also to know that some kind of justice has been
served by the death of Angel. As soon as I realised it was him
who had killed her, I hunted him down and returned the favour. It
was dangerous and stupid, I know, but I was blinded by rage and
grief, and making him suffer brought me some kind of
satisfaction. His minions, Spike and Drusilla, have left town. I
doubt we will ever hear from them again.
"I have been thinking back to my time when I was being
trained as a Watcher. I was given volumes of lore and prophecy,
taught advanced combat skills and instructed in how I was to hone
and prepare my Slayer for life on the front line. It occurs to me
now that all my elders back then regarded the Slayers as
prophesised phenomenons. As instruments to be played, as models
to be molded. The truth is that Slayers are much more than just
supernatural prowess and fighting machines. They are real people,
with real emotions of their own and the ability to make others
love them. I was prepared for many things in my youth, but I was
never prepared for the grief that I feel now. To any Watcher
reading this in the future, I beseech you to treasure the short
time that you have with your Slayers. If they are at all like my
Buffy they are wonderful, courageous, selfless girls. They are
the kind of spirited people we should all strive to be like, and
yet they are gone so soon. Like shooting stars; gone in an
instant but never forgotten, because for the short time that they
are here, they shine so bright that all the other heavenly beams
disappear into the background. I never really told Buffy how much
I admired her and how proud I was of her, and now it is too late.
Never make the same mistake I did. Never take your girl for
granted. This is the best advice I can offer you.
"Buffy truly was the most amazing person I ever met, and I
will miss her for the rest of my life."
Everything in his body went numb. He couldn't see, or hear, or
feel. The book fell from his hands and landed with a loud clunk
on the floor, but he was oblivious to it. Four words kept
spinning round his mind: <My Buffy is dead.> He closed his
eyes, trying to block it out, only to be assulted by a mental
picture of Buffy snuggled within a soft, fluffy blanket,
seemingly sleeping, never to wake again.
He fell to the side, his head sinking into his pillow. That was
the position that Jenny found him in half an hour later when she
came up to bed. He didn't notice as she pulled off his shoes and
socks and helped him under the covers. He was blind to the
movement of her bending down and picking up the diary, then
leaning in to kiss him lightly on the forehead.
"Sleep well, Sweetheart," she whispered.
* * * * *
The early morning dew-drops that hung on the grass soaked the
soft leather of Giles shoes as he walked through the cemetary
early the next morning. He searched out the place where Jenny's
grave usually stood, but found that the familiar white stone had
been replaced by a dull grey one carrying the name Jonathon
Levinson and the message, "He never knew how much we loved
him. He's at peace now; time to rest."
Jonathon...he knew that name. Wasn't he the boy that Buffy had
stopped from...No. Buffy hadn't stopped him. That made sense,
along with a lot of other things in this world. Without an
interest fuelled by the casting of the restoration curse, Willow
had never developed a talent for Witchcraft, and so come
graduation she had left Sunnydale for a more illustrious
education at Harvard. There was no more heartbreak for her over
Oz leaving, for their relationship, determind to be unworkable
over a long-distance, was over long before that event. Cordelia
had never discovered Xander's betrayal because he and Willow had
never been kidnapped by Spike. Indeed, since Angel's death no-one
had heard from Spike or Drusilla. And so Xander and Cordelia were
still a couple, living together since the Chase family went from
riches to rags. None of them knew Anya, for she had never been
rendered mortal by Cordelia's wish. None of them knew Faith, for
Kendra was still the active Slayer. And the Mayor - Buffy had
never conned Giles into buying the cursed candy, he had never
regressed back to Ripper and he had thwarted the Mayor's plans
himself. Aside from Jonathon's fate, everyone in this world
seemed...happier.
So why was he so miserable?
Turning away from Jonathon's grave, Giles continued walking,
scanning the inscriptions, searching for one particular name.
At last he found it.
Buffy Anne Summers
1981-1998
Gone from us, but not forever
Her memories shall never fade
Thoughts so sweet shall linger ever
Round the spot where she is laid
Giles stared numbly at the writing on the heavy grey stone. This
couldn't be happening. How could that be Buffy lying deep beneath
his feet? Was *this* how the world was going to remember her? A
short rhyme that didn't even begin to describe the girl that she
had been, didn't even try to convey how much everyone in the
world owed her. Giles fell to his kness and fingered the rough
engraving. He traced the outline of her name, caressing each
individual letter with his long fingers. B-U-F-F-Y. Buffy. That's
what it said. This was real. Oh God, why did this have to be
real?
"If it makes you feel any better, Slayers have a really good
time in the afterlife."
Giles looked round, and saw Aziraphale approaching him.
"You..."
"Total luxury. Even more so than the Saints," the angel
continued. "Every single one of them, since the dawn of man,
they're all together. And they are quite the party animals! We'll
be calling on their skills come the Final Battle which, if
Nostradamus is to be believed, is just around the corner, so
you'll see her again soon."
"You knew what would happen, didn't you?" he
challenged. "You knew that Buffy's life would be the cost of
Jenny's, didn't you? And yet you still put me through this.
Why?"
"Because it's the only way to make you see. You know in your
heart which one you'd let go of and which one you'd hang onto.
Now prove that you know it in your mind."
"What are you talking about?" Giles said. "Who are
you?"
"I told you who I am," Aziraphale said.
"I don't believe it. How can a Heavenly Being cause this
much pain?"
"All I did was to give you what you wanted!" Aziraphale
exclaimed, defensively. "Maybe I was wrong," he said,
crouching down so he was level with Giles. "Maybe I got your
wish wrong. Or maybe you did. Maybe you don't really know what
will make you happy. Or should I say who?"
"What's that supposed to mean?" Giles asked, spinning
round.
Aziraphale rolled his eyes. "Work it out for yourself."
He pulled out his watch and showed Giles the time. "Hadn't
you better get to work?" he said.
Giles was about to open his mouth to say something else, but
before he could, Aziraphale had disappeared.
* * * * *
The library was buzzing.
Not only with students reading, but with students typing and
clicking away at one of the many computers that now lined the
walls. Jenny sat, perched on the edge of one of the desks,
helping one of them with his work.
Giles barely noticed any of them as he sat alone in his office.
All he could think of was Buffy and the countless times he had
not appreciated her; the times he had let her down.
<It's an organic compound of muscle relaxants and adrenal
suppressers.> In this world he had never put her through that.
<You have no respect for me, or the job I perform.> In this
world, Angel had been killed long before he would have otherwise
returned from a millenia of torture in Hell.
He thought of the look on her face when she saw Olivia. The
disgust that she had made no attempt to hide when she had caught
him with Joyce. The sheer hatred that had always crossed her eyes
when she looked at Jenny. The woman that he was going to marry.
How could he marry someone that Buffy hated that much?
In this world he had never been forced into performing the
Cruciamentum, he had never been tortured by Angel and he had
never been influenced by Ethan's cursed candy. The old him had
only hurt her when there had been no other choice, or when it had
been out of his control. But in this world he had *chosen* to
marry Jenny. He had *chosen* to partake of an act that he knew
would have broken Buffy's heart.
It wasn't enough that he hadn't appreciated her. He had to betray
her as well. But now it was too late to make it up to her.
"It's harder than it looks, isn't it?"
Giles snapped his head up and found himself greeted by the sight
of the angel who had caused all this.
"How did you get in here," Giles asked, making no
attempt to disguise the contempt in his voice.
"Ineffable power. Doors aren't really a problem."
"What's harder than it looks?"
"Life. Making desicions. Getting what you want. It doesn't
really work."
"What do you want?"
"I want to help you. You've got to make the desicion, and
you've got to make it soon. We're running out of time,"
Aziraphale told him. "Do you want to leave things as they
are, or do you want to go back to how it was. Do you want Buffy
or Jenny? Do you want the blonde or the brunette?" The angel
knew he was taking a huge gamble here, but he was desperate. He
could see no other way to make Giles realise how much he needed
Buffy than by taking her away from him.
"I don't understand. You give me all this and then you just
take it away again? Why?"
"I don't have to take it away," Aziraphale told him.
"We can leave things as they are if you want...is that what
you want?"
"People are happy here. Willow, Xander, Cordelia, Jenny,
they're all happy," Giles said.
"This isn't about them, it's about you!" Aziraphale
shouted. "For God's sake, will you stop being so selfless
and think about yourself for a change! Who do you want - no, who
do you *need* more? Buffy or Jenny?"
Giles was silent for a long moment, contemplating needlessly, for
he knew what the answer was. He looked at the angel. "Will
you let me say goodbye to her first?" he asked.
Aziraphale nodded. "Just be quick. I'll be waiting for you.
The time portal will only hang around for another half hour, then
it's gone forever and you and I are both..." He drew his
finger across his throat to demonstrate his point.
As Giles nodded in understanding and began to walk away slowly,
Aziraphale looked up to the Heavens. <I know there's no
wedding bells playing, but I think progress has been made. It's
the best I can do, Sir. So what's the verdict. Can I come
back?>
<Yes, Aziraphale,> the voice filling his head told him.
<We're very pleased with your progress on this case. You can
come back.>
* * * * *
"Can I talk to you for a moment?" Giles whispered into
Jenny's ear.
"Sure," she said, jumping up from the desk. "I'll
be back in a minute." She told the student she was helping.
As they walked away, the sound of a childish wolf-whistle hit
their ears.
"I heard that, Louis," Jenny said.
"You were meant to," the boy replied. "Seriously
though, Ms.C, what do you see in this guy, especially with
burning hunks of love like me hanging around?"
"Oooh, I don't know," Jenny said. "Apart from his
dashing good looks, amazing intellect, our common interests and
the fact that he's great in bed...I guess there really isn't
anything."
Louis winced. "Not a visual picture I needed, thank
you."
"You asked for it," Jenny winked, before grabbing Giles
hand and walking with him out of the library.
They walked out of the library, along the collonnade and out onto
the field until they finally spoke.
"Did you want to say something to me?" Jenny asked.
"Jenny, I um...I love you. You know that, don't you?"
"Of course I do."
"I just wanted to make sure you knew because, um...well, I
may not get the chance to say it to you again."
"What the hell are you talking about," her voice icy,
full of fear.
"I can't explain. I wish I could. All I can tell you is
that-"
"Rupert, stop it!" Jenny yelled, causing several of the
students nearby to turn and look at them. "You're scaring
me, alright? Now would you please explain yourself?"
"I can't..."
"Don't fob me off with that."
"Jenny..." Giles began, glancing round at the students.
"People are staring - the children."
"I don't care!"
"Goodbye, Jenny," Giles said, no longer trying to
disguise his tears.
"Where are you going?"
"I'll never forget you," he said, as he turned to walk
out of the school gates.
"Rupert, wait! Rupert, you're scaring me, what are
doing?"
It took all of Giles' strength not to turn around and sweep her
up in his arms. He just kept his mind's eye focussed on Buffy's
smiling face.
"Rupert, come back!" Jenny yelled, and she ran out the
gates after him. Time froze just as her hand was about to grip
her fiance's arm.
"Are you sure about this?" Aziraphale asked.
Giles nodded. "I'm sure. It's time to let go of Jenny."
He turned to look at the frozen statue for the last time. "I
*have* to let go of Jenny because I *can't* let go of
Buffy."
The angel smiled. "That's good to know. Just do me a favour.
When you get back, tell *Buffy* that."
"You can count on it."
With that, Giles stepped through ethereal blue-grey mists of the
time portal for the second time in as many days.
* * * * *
Jenny was sitting in her classroom, working late in front of her
computer. She tapped a few keys, then looked back at the screen
to see if it was responding. The Rumanian text in front of her
was suddenly obscured by a small window showing a bar zipping
across to show the percent complete.
"Come on, come on..." she whispered to herself.
The bar disappeared, and a second panel opened up on the screen,
showing an English translation.
"That's it!" Jenny smiled, exhilerated. "It's
gonna work! This... will work."
She saved her work, and an unlabeled yellow floppy disk popped
out of her computer. Setting it next to a pile of books, Jenny
excitedly spun her chair opver to where a printer had begun
spitting out a hard copy of the Curse of Restoration. A cold
chill crept over the young teacher, and she looked up nervously,
as though sensing that she was not alone. Her fears were not
unfounded. As she looked up, she was horrified to recognise the
face of Angel sitting quietly at the back of her classroom.
"Angel..." Jenny began, jumping out of her seat and
moving slowly to the door. "How did you get in here?"
"I was invited," the demon told her. "The sign in
front of the school... 'Formatia trans sicere educatorum.'"
"'Enter all ye who seek knowledge,'" Jenny whispered.
Angel let out a cold laugh as he launched himself up from his
chair. "What can I say?" he continued. "I'm a
knowledge seeker."
"Angel, I-I-I've got good news," Jenny told him, frozen
to the spot with fear. God, how could she be so stupid! Sitting
here, alone at night without even so much as a cross to protect
herself.
I heard," Angel told her, with mock enthusiasm. "You
went shopping at the local boogedy-boogedy store." He
noticed the clear cut Orb sitting on the desk. "The Orb of
Thesulah," he said, picking it up. "If memory serves,
this is supposed to summon a person's soul... from the ether...
store it until it can be transferred."
He looked deep into the flawless centre of the Orb, and it began
to glow.
"You know what I hate most about these things?" he
asked.
The technopagan screamed as he lunged the Orb into the blackboard
behind her. Itshattered into a thousand sparkling pieces.
"They're so damn fragile," Angel smiled. "Must be
that shoddy gypsy craftsmanship, huh?
Outside in the halls, Giles watched as the ghostly figure himself
just a few short days ago wandered around, looking in all the
classrooms, trying to find Jenny, hoping that he wasn't too late.
The other Giles heard her piercing scream and immediately began
running in the direction of the classroom.
"I never cease to be amazed how much the world has changed
in just two and a half centuries," Angel told Jenny, as he
turned her moniter so he could see the screen.
The other Giles looked in at the scene in the classroom. He could
see Jenny's hand slowly reaching for the doorknob. With lightning
fast reflexes, the other Giles reached down and clicked the lock
on the door out of place, then swiftly headed to the lounge area.
Faster still, Giles clicked it back into place, just as Jenny's
hand touched the knob, turning it silently, only to find it
locked.
"It's a miracle to me," Angel continued. "You, you
put the secrets to restoring my soul in here...It comes out here.
'The Ritual of Restoration.' Wow. This, this brings back
memories."
Looking up at Jenny, he tore the sheet in half with a horrible
cracking sound.
"Wait. That's your..."
"Oh, my cure? No, thanks. Been there, done that, and deja vu
just isn't what it used to be."
Outside, Giles found himself inexplicably unable to tear himself
away from the scene that was unfolding in front of him. He looked
on as Angel turned back to his prey, sporting a hideous game
face, as Jenny tried to run away, only to be stopped by the
roaring demon, and as she was thrown brutally against the door.
"Oh, good. I need to work up an appetite first," Angel
said, and it was all Giles could do to restrain himself from
hitting him. <Remember Buffy.> Squeezing the threatening
tears from his eyes, Giles turned and ran as fast as he could
toward the lounge. He got there just in time to squeeze through
the swinging doors and lock them tightly behind him. A split
second later, Jenny came slamming into the doors, banging hard,
cursing them for trapping her inside the school with that
monster.
When he reached the road outside, Giles turned to give the old
school one last, final look. The large, arched window above the
school entrance caught his attention, as he noticed something
moving behind it. A silhoutted figure...a human...a demon. His
breath caught in his throat as he stared at the image of Angel
holding Jenny lovingly in his arms, then in one, swift movement,
perfected by years of practice, he twisting her head and snapping
her neck. Her lifeless body collapsed in a heap on the floor.
Jenny was dead.
Buffy would live.
* * * * *
He was back in the cemetary. A quick glance at his watch told him
that the time was just ticking over to 11pm.
"Hey Giles."
He turned to look at the owner of the voice. When he saw her it
was all he could do to not run towards her and take her in his
arms and hold her so tight she could never get away.
"Buffy..." he said.
"Are you okay?" she began, gently. "I'm sorry
about before. I didn't realise...I'm such a ditz, I had no
idea...are you okay?"
"I'm fine," Giles laughed. "I'm just...I'm just so
glad to see you! I thought I'd never..."
"Giles, are you sure you're okay?" Buffy asked.
"You're looking at me like I've just come back from the
dead. Again."
"I'm fine, really."
"You wanna go get some coffee and talk about it?"
Giles shook his head. "No thank you. Talking's not really
what I need right now."
"Okay," Buffy said, and she turned to go.
"But the coffee sounds good. I mean if you'd...if you'd
like."
Buffy smiled. "That'd be nice."
"Good," Giles said, a small smile creeping over his
face.
"Hey, that's better!" Buffy grinned, noticing his
smile. "Let's see if we can keep that up, huh?"
"I don't think that'll be a problem," Giles told her.
"I've done a lot of thinking. I know I miss her and I always
will," he said, looking toward Jenny's grave. "That's
what happens when someone dies. But I've also realised that it's
time to let go and that I *can* live without her...just as long
as *you* don't go anywhere."
Buffy looked at him, not sure whether to be shocked. "I'm
not going anywhere," she told him.
"I'm glad to hear it. Now how about that coffee?"
END