Don't tell me
By Sara Jung

AUTHOR: Sara
RATING: PG
DISTRIBUTION: BG Shippers
SPOILERS: after Buffy discovered Olivia in ‘The Freshman’ and before she met Sunday
FEEDBACK: Yes please
SUMMARY: That would be telling.
DISCLAIMER: The characters are the property of Joss Whedon (All Hail), Mutant Enemy, Sandollar Productions, Kuzui Enterprises, 20th Century Fox Television and the WB.

Buffy walked down the street, unaware of the vamps lurking in the dark. Her thoughts circled around one: ‘You don’t need a Watcher anymore.’

She couldn’t believe he’d said that. She needed him! Would ever! And he needed her.

Oh no dear, he has Olivia.

<Shut up.>

Why? Because you don’t care?

<Because it’s a lie.>>

Ha! Good joke, sweetie.

<As I said, shut up.>

Uh, or what? Will you use your Slayer power against me? How? I’m you.

<Go away. Don’t bother me any more.>

Then you’ll have to rip your heart out of your chest.

<I would.>

Yeah… sure. Hey look isn’t that Angel?

<Angel who?>

See? You’re so into Giles that you already forgot your big love… you know the one that became a bloody wanker because you shagged.

<OK, I was nice till now. Fuck off.>

Oh I’m not the one who fucked.

<Go. Away.>

I’m scared…

<You’d better be.>

And why?

<You depend on me.>

Sure. I depend on you breathing and stuff but I don’t depend on YOU.

<Fuck off.>

Why can’t you be reasonable about this? You know you love him. We both know it. Why don’t you admit it?

<Don’t tell me what to do.>

I’m not. I’m just giving advice.

<Let me give you an advice. Be quiet or I’ll do something very stupid.>

Like what? It would be embarrassing for you, not for me.

<You don’t even know what I’d do!>

Sure I do. I’m your heart, dear.

<I don’t believe my heart is such an asshole.>

And why not? You hurt everybody who cares for you. Angel. Mom. Giles. Over and over again. I wonder why they still care for you.

<Because I’m nice…?>

Sure.

<Doesn’t sound very convincing, does it?>

Nope.

<Then, as my heart, give me advice how to change it.>

I did. Again and again. But do you listen to me? No. Not my problem, I guess.

<OK. Fine. Leave me alone.>

If that’s what you want.

<Hey! Don’t believe everything I say!>

Oh, I don’t sweetie.

<Then what?>

Nothing. By the way, do you mind talking to yourself?

 

Buffy flushed only at the thought of walking back into Giles’ apartment after the early morning shock but she had to clear that. But before she even left the campus, Sunday captured her and beat her into a bloody clump.

 
The END